I‘m in a quandary. I started learning Spanish through Duolingo a few months after meeting someone back in 2021. I did it to show her just how interested I was and how committed I was to sticking around. Thinking maybe in the future I’d meet her friends and family and hopefully by then I would have a little Spanish knowledge. I use to (try to) send cute voice notes in Spanish. 950 consecutive days later I’m still learning, still using the app each day, even after the ups and downs but now I don’t know if I should keep going or pack it in.

On one hand I don’t want to stop the streak, it’s an achievement in itself to say I’ve been committed to something for close to 1000 days. I’m proud of that. If I stop now I can’t go back and pick up where I finished, I’d be starting from day 1 again and I don’t like the thought of giving up on anything. I’m not a quitter.

However, on the other hand it’s a constant reminder of how things didn’t work out, how we didn’t become something more after all of this time. But it’s also a daily memory of the good times because I think she use to like hearing my amazing Spanish voice notes… Si! 🇪🇸

So I don’t know what to do. Maybe I’ll move to Spain and share my Spanish fluency there…